U STAY WITH THE BLAH BLAH.......STFU!

ANOTHER DAY AND MORE OF HIS BLAH BLAH! EVERYDAY ITS NOTHIN NEW WITH HIS BROKEN RECORD ASS! HE IS ALWAYS COMIN WITH THE BLAH BLAH! I SWEAR ON EVERYTHING IF I HEAR "U THE ONLY ONE I WANT" ONE MORE TIME IMA JUST TAKE HELLO KITTY AND BLOW MY FUCKIN HEAD OFF! ITS ALWAYS SOMETHING WITH HIS ASS! HE WAS MILLION REASONS WHY IM NOT IN HIS EVERYDAY BUT THEN WANTS ME TO FEEL SPECIAL WHEN HE CALLS.......EPIC FAIL! I GET BORED WITH GUYS SO EASY I REALLY DONT THINK HE UNDERSTANDS. I MEAN I TALK TO GUYS HERE AND THERE BUT RIGHT NOW AT THIS TIME THERES ONLY ONE GUY WHO HAS ME THINKIN OF HIM IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT. HE HAS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL EYES I HAVE EVER SEEN. I SWEAR WHEN HE LAUGHS I GET SOOO HAPPY. HE MAKES ME SMILE WITHOUT TRYING AND MAKE ME FEEL SPECIAL WITHOUT WORDS AND GET THIS. WE'RE JUST FRIENDS! THATS SHIT BLOWS ME!

HOW CAN SOMEONE THAT MAY LIKE ME BUT IM JUST FRIENDS WITH TREAT ME LIKE YOU SHOULD AND WE'VE BEEN DOING THIS ROLLER COASTER FOR HOW LONG NOW? C'MON SON! WHAT DO I NEED TO DO TO SHOW U THAT IF I WAS WITH U IT WOULD BE AMAZING! I WOULD GEEKED IF U WOULD JUST WAKE UP AND SEE WHATS RIGHT IN FRONT OF U BUT I THINK IN MY HEART I GAVE UP ON U MONTHS AGO AND IM REALLY RIDING ON A DEAD HORSE NOW! I DONT KNOW......GRRRRR! FUCK IT! U'LL NEVER GET IT ANYWAYS. I LOVED PARTS OF U THAT OTHERS SAW AS FLAWS BUT IT MEANS NOTHING. STILL SAVED VOICEMAILS THAT SERIOUSLY IN ALL HONESTY MEAN NOTHING! FUCKKKKK! IM OVER IT!

IM DONE WASTING MY TIME ON THAT! #ONTOTHENEXT.........SO IN LIFE SHIT HAS BLOWED ME LIKE A LOW PAID PORNSTAR! IM STILL OVER HERE TRYIN TO NOT CRY EVERY TIME I THINK OF JAYDEN{MY GODSON THAT I SPOKE OF BELOW FOR THOSE WHO HAVEN'T TOOK THE TIME TO READ BELOW}! IN MY HEART I STILL CANT BELIEVE UR GONE. U WOULDA BEEN 6 ON THE 23RD OF LAST MONTH AND I CANT BELIEVE ITS BEEN ALMOST 2 YEARS THAT SORRY ASS LIL BOY TOOK UR LIFE FROM U AND THAT DUMB BITCH I ONCE CALLED A FRIEND DID NOTHING TO SAVE U! PAUSE.........{5 MINS LATER} I TRIED BUT I COULDNT SPEAK ON YOUR NAME WITHOUT BREAKING INTO TEARS. I LIVE EVERYDAY WATCH ERIC, JAY, AND TIA GROW UP AND INSIDE ITS KILLING ME! ERIC JUST TURNED 6 TOO BABYBOY. HE IS SOOO BIG! EVERYDAY I GO OUTSIDE HE COMES RUNNING WITH HIS NEW PUPPY! HE TALKS ABOUT U FROM TIME TO TIME. HE MISSES U TOO! WE ALL DO! IM STILL GOING TO GET THE TAT OF UR FOOTPRINT FOR U! ERIC IS SOOO JEALOUS! HE WANTS ME TO GET A SPIDERMAN FOR HIM! LOL I DONT WANT HIM TO KNOW BUT IN MY HEART YOU'LL ALWAYS HOLD JUST A LIL STRONGER HOLD. SHHHH! U BETTER NOT TELL HIM! DO ME A FAVOR HIGH FIVE PJ, GIL, BRANDON, E, AND ZAC FOR ME. I KNOW THEY ARE ALL UP THERE HANGIN WITH U AND SHOWING U ALL THE LOVE WE CANT. DONT LET THEM GET U IN TROUBLE. THEY ALWAYS WERE THE WILD ONES! PAUSE.......

ITS SERIOUSLY WILD TO THINK OF THE THINGS IVE DONE AN GONE THUR TO GET HERE. THE WRONGS, THE RIGHTS, THE UPS AND THE MANY DOWNS. THE TEARS THE SOAKED MY PILLOWS TIME AND TIME AGAIN WHEN I FELT LIKE I JUST COULDA TAKE ANYMORE AND I WAS RIGHT ON THE EDGE. AND NOW I STAND WITH A HAND FULL OF TRUE FRIENDS, HAND FULL OF FAMILY AND 3 GODBABIES THAT MEAN THE WORLD TO ME. I THANKFUL TO STILL BE ALIVE. I CAME SO CLOSE TO FALLING SOOOO MANY TIMES BUT SOMEONE ALWAYS HELD ME HANDS AND HELPED ME UP FROM THE MADNESS EVERY TIME. IM SAYIN GOD. NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES SINNING GOT ME INTO TROUBLE HE ALWAYS HELD ME HANDS AND HELPED ME OUT OF IT ALL. DAMN.......I SERIOUSLY NEED TO GET BACK TO CHURCH. IVE BEEN SPILLIN EXTRA HEAVY. IDK SHITS JUST SO CRAZY. IVE BEEN SPENDING ALOT OF TIME ALONE. JUST SITTING IN MY ROOM OR GOING AWAY SOMEWHERE THINKING WHAT MY NEXT MOVE WILL BE. DONT REALLY HAVE ANYONE IN MY CORNER ANYMORE. I REALIZE AT THE END OF LAST YEAR. ALOT OF THE PEOPLE THAT WAS IN MY CORNER WERE FAKER THEN LADY GAGA'S WIGS! I GUESS I KINDA LIKE THIS SOLO THING. IT SEEMS LIKE EVERY TIME I MAKE A NEW FRIEND THEY COME WITH THE BULLSHIT. IM KINDA BETTER OFF SOLO.

SPEAKING OF BULLSHIT LET ME VENT ON THIS BULLSHIT I GOT PUSHED INTO WHEN I WAS JUST TRYING TO BE A GOOD FRIEND! SO THIS GUY IMA JUST CALL HIM "P" AKA PUSSY ASS FAKE NIGGA BUT IM JUST SAYIN! ME AND HIM KNEW EACH OTHER FROM THE WHACK ASS CLUB SCENE IN ORLANDO. HE DATED 1 OF MY "FRIENDS" AND THEY BROKE UP BUT WE WAS COOL. HE STARTED DATING A GIRL IN ORLANDO WHO KINDA HAD A NAME FOR HERSELF AND EVERYTHING SEEMED COOL UNTIL OUT OF NO WHERE HE STARTED CALLING ME AND TRYIN TO CHILL LOWKEY ON SOME BOOTCALL SHIT. IM NOT A COLD HEARTED ASS BITCH{MOST OF THE TIME} SO I WAS LIKE FUCK THAT. U GOOD. TOLD HIM HE HAD A GIRL AND HE SAID "WE BOTH GROWN" FAIL! SO LIKE THE REAL BITCH I AM I TOLD THIS GIRL ABOUT HER MAN IN THE CLUB 1 NIGHT WHILE I WAS ALIL TIPSY{MY BAD}. I SHOULDA SAID SOMETHING AT ANOTHER TIME BUT I FUCKED UP. OH WELL. SHE TOOK ME STR8 TO HIM AND THEN OUTTA NO WHERE HE STARTS YELLING AND SCREAMIN IN MY FACE SAYIN IM LYIN WHICH BLOWED ME! I WAS TIPSY AND IT HAD BEEN A LONG WEEKEND OF PARTY! I HAD NO CLUE WHAT TO SAY! I WAS IN SHOCKED WHICH MADE ME LOOK SOOOOO BAD! SHE WALKED AWAY WITH THE IDEA IN HER HEAD I WAS A LYIN ASS BITCH. WRONG!

I LET IT GO. A FEW WEEKS LATER I RAN INTO "P" AT MY FRIENDS CLUB NIGHT{ THURSDAY NIGHTS AT ELEMENT NIGHT CLUB DOWNTOWN ORLANDO PINE ST! ITS THE SHIT! U SHOULD GO! LOL @ MY RANDOM PROMO! HEHEHE} HE WALKED UP TO ME AND WAS LIKE I DONT WANNA HAVE PROBLEMS. NO BEEF. IT IS WHAT IT IS. I WAS LIKE WHATEVER. WE AINT COOL BUT NO BEEF. AND KEEP IT MOVIN. SO FROM NOW ON WHEN I SAW HIM HE WOULD SAY HEY AND THEN KEEP IT MOVIN BUT ME AND THE CHICK SAID NOTHING TO EACH EVERRRRRR! AND THEN 1 OFMY "FRIENDS" CAME TO ME AND WAS LIKE SHE THINKS SHE IS PREG. I TOLD HER I HAD HER BACK AND WOULD GO WITH HER NO MATTER WHAT THE CHOICE WAS. AND WHEN I ASKED WHO THE BABY'S DADDY WAS SHE SAID "P"! OMG...OH SHIT.....WTFFFFFFFFF! I WAS LIKE OH HELLLLLL NAW!

I TOLD HER HE HAD A GIRL AND SHE WAS BLOWED. SHE HAD NO CLUE. HE TOLD HER HE WAS SINGLE! LIES LIES LIES YET AGAIN BUT MY "FRIEND" WASNT A CLUB PERSON AND DIDNT KNOW HIM LIKE THAT OTHER THAN WHEN SHE WOULD SEE HIM 1 ON 1 OR AT MY FRIENDS CLUB NIGHT {THURSDAY NIGHTS AT ELEMENT NIGHT CLUB DOWNTOWN ORLANDO PINE ST! @DJJAYR KILLS IT! ANOTHER PROMO! HEHEHE} SHE WAS HEATED! SHE CALLED HIM AND ASKED ABOUT HIS GIRLFRIEND WHICH HE TOLD HER THE TRUTH!{BOUT DAMN TIME!} SHE DIDNT TELL HIM I TOLD HER OR THAT WE EVEN KNEW EACH OTHER. BUT SHE ASKED ME TO GO TO HER DOCTOR APPOINTMENT WITH HER THE FALLING WEEK IN WHICH HE WOULD BE AT.....MAYBE! SHIT I WISH I HAD THEME MUSIC CAUSE THIS IS WHEN IT GETS GOOD! SO THE WEDNESDAY OF THE APPOINTMENT CAME UP AND I HAD NO PROBLEM SHOWING UP! I WAS THERE BUT THERE WAS NO HIM.....AT FIRST! THEN OUTTA NO WHERE HE CAME WALKING IN AND I SWEAR WHEN THAT NIGGA SAW ME OF ALLLL PEOPLE SITTING NEXT TO HER HE WAS BLOWEDDDDDD! LOL HELLA PRICELESS! ALL 2 OF US WAS THERE WHEN THEY TOLD HER SHE WAS 6 WEEKS PREG AND THE TIMES MATCH UP ITS HIS! I WAS JUMPIN AROUND INSIDE BUT THAT WASNT ME FOCUS! MY FOCUS WAS ON MY "FRIEND" I HAD TO MAKE SURE SHE WAS OK WITH IT AND IF SHE WAS GONNA KEEP THE BABY!

SHE WAS CONFUSED BUT IN THE END THEY TALKED ABOUT IT AND HE SAID "MY FAMILY WILL NEVER ACCEPT THIS BABY! THEY DONT KNOW U AND I HAVE A GIRL! ITS HER BIRTHDAY IN A FEW DAYS! SHE CANT FIND OUT ABOUT THIS NOW!" SO I DONT KNOW WHAT WAS SAID AFTER I LEFT HER AND WENT HOME BUT IN THE END SHE DIDNT WANNA KEEP THE BABY AND GOT A....WELL U KNOW! I WAS IN CALI AT THE TIME AND HAD NO CLUE. BUT WHAT DID I CARE? IT WASNT MY BABY AND HE WASNT MY MAN! UNTIL.......A FEW WEEKS LATELY I RAN INTO P AND HIS GIRL AT A CLUB. ME AND HIM SPOKE BUT I SAID NOTHING TO HER LIKE ALWAYS UNTIL SHE CAM UP TO ME AND WANTED TO "TALK". SHE SAID SHE DIDNT WANNA HAVE HARD FEELINGS FOR ME BUT THAT THE NIGHT I TOLD HER ABOUT HIM TALKIN TO ME SHE WAS UPSET ABOUT WHAT HAPPEN WHEN I WAS IN FRONT OF HIM. WHICH I COULD UNDERSTAND CAUSE I WAS TIPSY AND I LOOKED REALLY BAD WHEN HE STARTED YELLING BUT I MEAN C'MON SON, I HAD A GUY YELLIN IN MY FACE LIKE HE WAS GONNA DO SOMETHING. I WOULD THREW OFF. WE SPOKE AND THEN I SPILLED AND SAID SOMETHING ABOUT THE BABY. IDK WHY BUT I TOLD HER ABOUT MY "FRIEND" AND THE BABY AND HIM AND THE APPOINTMENT AND EVERYTHING. I TOLD HER THAT MY "FRIEND" DIDNT KNOW ABOUT HER AND EVERYTHING. SHE GOT MY NUMBER AND TOLD ME TO HAVE HER CALL ME SO THEY COULD TALK WHICH I SAID OK. BUT SHE SAW THIS! TOWARDS THE END OF THE NIGHT OUTSIDE HE WALKED UP TO ME AND ASKED IF I WAS TRYIN TO TELL HER. I JUST LOOKED AT HIM AND DIDNT REPLY. BUT SHE STARTED ACTING FUNNY AND AT THE END OF THE NIGHT SHE TOLD HIM LIKE A DUMBASS! HE GOT ALL MAD AND WAS YELLING AT ME LIKE HE DID THE FIRST TIME SAYIN I WAS TRYING TO BREAK THEM UP AND WHY. SAYIN I WAS A CRAZY BITCH AND THEN HE CALLED MY "FRIEND" A WHORE! HE SAID 3 OF HIS BOYS RAN A TRAIN ON HER AND HE NEVER FUCKED HER! I WAS BLOWIN! I CALLED HER RIGHT THERE IN FRONT OF HIM AND HER BUT SHE WAS WITH HER MAN AND WASNT PICKING UP! GRRRRRRR! SO LIKE THE FIRST TIME THE GIRL WALKED AWAY AND DIDNT SAY NOTHING ELSE. I TEXTED HER THE GIRLS NUMBER AND TOLD HER TO CALL HER AND ASKS HER HERSELF AND DROPPED IT BUT MY BOYS DIDNT.

THEY FOUND OUT WHAT HAPPEN AND WENT CRAZY! THEY WANTED TO KILL HIM FOR GETTING IN MY FACE LIKE THAT BUT I DROPPED IT. THE NEXT DAY MY "FRIEND" AND THE GIRL TALKED AND LIKE A STUPID BITCH MY "FRIEND" WAS COVERING FOR HIS FUCK ASS AND LEAVING ME OUT THERE TO LOOK LIKE A CRAZY STALKER BITCH! I WAS SO HEATED! I JUST SAID FUCK THE WHOLE THING. TOLD THEM ALL TO GO TO HELL AND WENT BOUT MY LIFE! NOW WHEN I SEE THE GIRL SHE HITS THE DRITY LOOKS LIKE A DUMB BITCH WHICH IS SOOOO FUNNY CAUSE SHE IS THE ONE SLEEPING WITH DRITY DICK! LOL "P" JUST LOOK AT ME AND SMILES CAUSE HE GOT AWAY WITH IT! AND THE "FRIEND" ACTS LIKE NOTHING HAPPEN AND TRYS TO ACT LIKE WE PEOPLES! EPIC FAIL!

I REALLY DONT KNOW WHY I WROTE ALL THIS BUT IT FEELS GOOD TO GET MY SIDE OF THE STORY OUT! I JUST CANT WAIT TILL KARMA HITS THEIR ASSES! ITS GONNA BE GOOD SHIT! LOL KARMA IS A BITCH AND THAT BITCH'S NAME IS COMMODITY"ALEA" LOL *DEAD* IMA STOP TYPING! MY FINGERS HURT! LOL MORE LATER!

LOVE AND ROCKETS{MY LIFE AS LIZ ROCKS}
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