THE START OF A NEW

So I guess this is a new outlet for me! A start of a new way for me to spill how I really feel without worrying about anything anyone has to say cause I'm gonna be real....THIS IS MY SHIT! U DONT LIKE WHAT I GOTTA SAY THEN LEAVE!

So let me get started by posting some blogs i had on my random ass myspace. I hope you read, enjoy and learn alot about me that u might not know. Feel free to asks questions.

Ya Girl,
-Commodity{Alea}-



-December 30, 2006 - Saturday

Can you.....show me...you!?!

Its harder than its seems to sit so close and not have childish day dreams of things we've done behind closed doors. Times when I screamed and gasped begging for more. I want you to want me in ways I want you. I want you to show me that I can trust you. Show me that the vibes of player like tendencies are just me being scared. And that in reality I have nothing to fear. I want you to help my open places in my heart that have been closed and forgotten by pasted heartbreak. I want you to.......show me!

Show me how it feels to be free. Tie me up in your embrace and let me stay inside the feelings I get when our bodies are so close that we make not two but one as a whole. One pair of lovers. One pair of dreamers. One pair together.

I long so much for you to hold me near. To hear you tell me as you kiss my resting lips that I have nothing to fear. The whispers of words only our souls can hear. I wake to your lips and your body next to mine. We're eye to eye but your not looking just at me but in me. Pasted the front of a smiling face and to the person I really am.

You see my soul and you touch it, time and time again. You leave your mark in places I've forgotten were there. I flash back every time I see your face. Back to times when I cried out Gods name thanking him for you. You make me feel like I'm lost within you! I float above my problems and I kiss the heavens with you as my guide but in my heart I'm still afraid of you. Afraid of the feelings I get from you vibe. Afraid but still reaching from the feelings and emotions im feeling for your soul. Reaching towards the heat I feel from your soul and wondering if you could ever show me that what you say is true? Is the feelings that we shared worth that to you? Can you......show me...you!


-December 31, 2006 - Sunday


If Life was a movie!

If life was a movie and I could pick which roll to play I already know what I'd say but to the people who are only lookin from the outside in, let me school you, class is in. When I was little, as far back as I can recall, my life was a joke and I mean everyone and everything involved.

Abuse seen and felt at a young age. Black and blue marks in the place of kisses and hugs. I would lay and bed and think I can't believe my daddy loves us this much. Moved from place to place and forced to fit in. Even when the color of my skin left me alone in the end. No real solid family to call my own. I was just kinda young, dumb and alone.

Divorce became our family story before I could remember his face. Then I felt I could be me. Tried my hardest to feel at ease. Mom working like a dog just to survive left us at home most of the time. Just me, and my brother home alone. Living in a place that soon became my temp home.

Back to CALI I went once again. Living under a place I nicknamed hell, which in reality was daddy's fist and daddy's new bitch's living room floor bedroom of hell. Wearing make-up to cover marks he left across my small fame body where he showed his love. I broke away after 9 months when I felt enough was enough. Then next day Mom showed up to get me and my brother both. In a car driving to the unknown. Didn't asks questions, we just had to go.

Belize was my new home but for how long? This wasn't Oregon or CALI. Could this be a place I would learn to call home? By this time fitting in became to easy. I easily change and switched up everything to become what was accepted. Mom was so busy that most of the time my needs were mostly neglected. She found someone to marry and love. To her he was a blessing from above.

We packed again and off we go. She said Orlando will become your new home. I came to Orlando scared and afraid. They tested me and put me in the 4Th grade. Shy and scared I stayed to myself. In dance I showed all the emotion I felt. I lived like if the world was mine. Then a door bell rings and it was daddy time.

He found me again. I went into shock. Broke in tears and ran down the block. I hid in a tree till my brother appeared. He found me shaking, heartbroken with my face soaked with tears. I just kept saying "Dad can't be here." He found us some way. I was overcome with fear. But he soon showed me why he was here. To get my love he flashed his cash. I pointed I got it, it was that fast. To today's standards ballin he was but even with all his money he couldn't buy back my love.

My brother made the choice to stay with him. I guess the money sucked him in. I went every summer just to spend again. Then the FBI kicked his door in. Family put me and my brother on a plane. Back to Florida but this time to stay. 30 years was the story for dear old dad. I just couldn't feel bad for the father I never had. I'll be 42 till I see him again but in my heart the true daddy's girl still lives within.

Fights here and there with my Mom became common. Stepmother funding my bank accounts was no problem. Family problems here and there. I lived life as if I didn't care. Pregnancy soon became my story. But now that another story. Relationships became my weakness. Lookin for someone not tryin to be in what I nicknamed my deepest. Not tryin to be inside of me. Just someone to stand by my side and do right by me. But lets be real, GUYS WILL BE GUYS! But I fell many times for stories and lies.

So I guess you were wrong after all. I know to many I look like the girl who has it all but you couldn't have been more wrong. I to can sing my own sad song. So I guess for now my roll in the movie is the girl that smiles, laughs, dances, and is just tryin to do her but inside has a deep story thats just unknown. Not the prom queen or the girl who keeps taken guys for an emotional ride. Just the girl chillin and still searching for the right guy.


-March 5, 2007 - Monday


Lord Why? Why My Boyz? RIP Zach And E!!! I Love U Always!

This one is for you Zach and E! I don't know what life will be without you here. I love you always!







Didn't want to believe it but its true. Drinking and driving took your lives from you. You always said "Do it big or not at all" but I never believed doin it big would be your down fall. My heart hit the floor when I heard from a friend that I would never laugh and joke with you again. The tears I cry come falling down like there is no end. Tears for the times we'll never have again. For the jokes that will never be told again and the inside jokes I'll really have to keep inside cause the laughter died when you died that never forgettable day. I love you with all my heart and soul and I pray that one day I'll see you again. I'll never forget you two. I will always

DO IT BIG OR NOT AT ALL FOR YOU! I hope you know I love you!

RIP ZACH AND E! 3-4-07


-March 12, 2007 - Monday

Aint that a Bitch!!!!!!! Poem! Read The Whole Thing To Understand!

I was thinking about you. Thinking about what it felt like the first time I saw you. You were everything I had ever wanted and could ever wish for. I know its corny to say but you had me since hello. Since the first time you smiled my way. I remember the first time we kissed. The way your lips fit perfect with mine. First kisses can make or break someones relationship and in our case it made it and made me fall for you. You understood that I'd been hurt alot before but you didn't care. You understood that I got alot of rumors about me comin from haters and that they would say and do anything to see me unhappy but you didn't care. You kept telling me that you believed in me and that I was worth the drama and fight.

I was thinking about the first time. The first time you touched places in me that I forgot I had. The first time I felt you heart beating with mine as I gave my all to you and you gave your all to me. You respected me enough to wait for it and you wrapped yourself within it when you got it. You respected my background and the woman that I have become because of it. You wanted to grow with me and not just change and mold me into what would please you.

I couldnt stop smiling when I thought of the way it feels to have your face be the first thing I see when I wake up in your arms. And how it feels when you just look in my eyes and place the most simplest forehead kiss upon my head. Then I thought about the way you first told me you loved me. I could still feel my heart melt like I was reliving that moment over again. The laughs we shared acting like kids in Disney Quest and running up and down the beach and then.............................................................................

I woke up. I realized that everything I was thinking about was just a fantasy. A dream.....of what I wish I could find. One tear hit my pillow as I thought about everything that happen in that dream and how everything that I was dreaming about is what I truly want. I layed still and I fell back asleep to dream of him once more.

Aint that a bitch!


-November 15, 2007 - Thursday

ALL ON YOU!

To think that Im really sitting back and having flash backs to the first time we touched. You didnt even know I wanted you but traces of you were left all over me before you knew my name. Before you knew me and not only of me. I got lost inside your smile the first time we met. From a single hand shake you took my breath away. You glow without trying. You make me glow without trying. You love parts of me that I pray to change. You touch and kiss places that no one has ever been before and sex doesnt even have to be a topic. You came into my life as a friend and have take over my heart and soul as a lover without even making love to me. Your who many females dream of and you just don't know it. Your nerd like ways are by far the sexiest thing about you. I never really went for the geeks but in your case thats a upgrade. From late night phone calls to nose rubbing and butterfly kissed night caps you got me hooked. My days are filled with daydreams of simple kisses that we shared that have changed my life in many ways. I dont think of others in the same light. Your single kiss has me tripping out and Im happy it happen. Walking around with big smiles on my face and got everyone saying "Oh shit! Something happen" and their right! You happen! From days of the long walks worrying about guys that treat me like shit and "friends" that suck, to now....happy smiles and laughs. But trying to get you to take a risk on me is the only thing I want to do. I wish you could see that really growing with you is all I want to do. Now the question is..........WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO?!? IT'S ALL ON YOU?????


-December 1, 2007 - Saturday


LETTER TO MR.WHAT FELT RIGHT!

Dear Mr. What Felt Right,
I felt it the first time we talked and I wanted so bad for it not to be true! I felt that something was just not right about you! Something off the pages of the wrong book. Something that was so wrong but tasted so good. I let you in when I should of stayed where I was at. Yea, where I was at was whack but at the same time where I was at would never leave me feeling the empty feeling where your head once rested and your lips once touched. Being hurt by someone who could never touch your soul is nothing compared to being hurt by someone whos soul became sooo close to your that for a second you forgot you were two different people. You forgot you were not ment to be. You got lost in the feelings of being safe in between the pages of their book even thou the paper cuts the book left upon your fingers were so deep you could no longer read between the bloody lines. Places where you kissed me, I wish i could scrub away the traces you left. I wish I could change everything about the day we met. I wish you were different then the rest. I wish you could live up to be half the man I see in you! I wish you would let your self shine in half the light I see inside you. I wish you weren't just Mr. What Felt Right!

I wish I could forget everything more than you could EVER know! I wish I didnt feel your heart race every time we touched. I wish I didnt care about every little thing that may you the man you are. I wish and I hope and I can pray till my knees give away to God and my voice cant speak of the pain any longer but why? Why care? Why crying? Why did I even listen to those pointless lies? I asks myself those questions everyday. I asks myself those questions all the time. I asks myself over and over again, why would you fall for Mr. What Felt Right?


-May 25, 2008 - Friday

LETTER TO MY UNBORN CHILD. RIP!

BABY GIRL,
EVEN THOU YOU CAME AS A SHOCK. I WAS READY FOR YOU. YOU BECAME MY EVERYDAY AND YOU WERE MONTHS AWAY FROM BEING BORN. I TOLD MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY ABOUT YOU WITH THE BIGGEST SMILE ON MY FACE AS THE JOY OF THE LIFE I WAS HOLDING INSIDE MY BELLY GREW TO A SIZE I NEVER THOUGHT IT WOULD. ME AND YOUR DADDY DID EVERYTHING TO GET READY FOR YOU. MADE LIFETIME MOVES THAT WOULD MAKE SURE YOUR LIFE WAS ALWAYS THE BEST. I TRIED TO HOLD ON BUT SOMETHING HELD YOU FROM ME. I FOUND OUT ABOUT YOU ON X-MAS EVE AND LOST YOU ONLY A FEW MONTHS LATER. BUT IN THOSE MONTHS I GREW TO LOVE THE SICK MORNINGS AND THE OVER SLEEPY FEELINGS OF EVERYDAY. IT WAS A SMALL PRICE TO PAY FOR A HEAVEN SENT LIFE. YOUR MOMMY AND DADDY'S ANGEL NOW. WATCH OVER US NOW BABY. WE BOTH GREW TO LOVE THE IDEA OF YOU AND BOTH ARE SAD YOUR GONE BUT JUST KNOW IN OURS HEARTS YOU WILL ALWAYS LIVE ON. OUR LOVE FOR YOU WILL NEVER STOP I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT. WE WIILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU ALWAYS.

MOMMY AND DADDY!


-June 28, 2008 - Saturday

๑۩๑Justice for Jayden๑۩๑


๑۩๑Justice for Jayden ๑۩๑
The picture above is of 4-year-old Jayden Hayes who on April 3rd, 2008 was murdered at the hands of the mother's boyfriend 19-year-old Jonathan Ortiz by a fatal blow to the stomach of 4-year-old Jayden Hayes. Jayden was deeply loved by family and friends and was a light in the early days of his life! I love Jayden very much and miss him deeply. Jayden's killer is only looking to face 5years or less for the killing of our angel. Jayden is 1 of 3 of my godsons. He death is still a shock to me and Im still heartbroken but we are still fighting for JUSTICE FOR JAYDEN! I LOVE U JAYDEN AND I WILL NEVER LET U GO IN MY HEART!

*UPDATE* Jonathan Ortiz is now out on bond, while Jayden's family suffers the consequence of his actions, Jonathan is walking the streets...*UPDATE*

*UPDATE* COURT CASE IS STILL IN THE WORKS. I WILL KEEP U POSTED*UPDATE*


-September 10, 2008 - Wednesday

Different

You say your different. You say your a step above the rest. But its funny that you say this only when your finished and I'm laying naked on your chest. You give me forehead kisses as if that seals the deal. I push away and you can tell....without words you know I know. You drop some lines about us taking it slow. You keep runnin the same played out lines over and over again. "We need to get to know each other better," "We need to become friends." I just keep thinkin to myself, what are we doin then?!? We get lost within each other sexually and then you hit me with the lets be friends. You keep swearing to God your so different and you'll show me in the end. I lay down and think to myself, if your so different then why are you acting like everybody else then? Your only around when sex is on the menu. If sex is not a option then you presents is not needed. You see me in public and I go 30 mins before even being greeted. You say your gonna change but your actions speak so much louder than words. I gave you a out many times before and you pushed it away. Keep sayin your different and "thats my word, ok?".

You told me you were mad about what I had to say But I can't apologize, you made me feel this way. You don't understand why I see and think about you this way! But maybe its because I wanted you to be different but really your just the same. Same person, same lines, same game, different face. But in the end I guess you are different in many different ways. I mean I don't know many guys that would go so hard to fight what I have to say. And I don't know many guys that wouldn't take the easy way out when its right in their face. So I guess you were different.....but in all the wrong ways.


-February 1, 2009 - Sunday

THE REAL! GUYS THIS IS FOR YOU!


I KEEP GETTING THESE NOTES FROM GUYS ASKIN WHAT I WANT AND NEED FROM A GUY. ASKIN WHY I DONT "FUCKS WIT A NIGGA" AND "WHY IM SINGLE"! I SORRY GUYS BUT BOTH THOSE QUESTIONS ARE A DEAL BREAKER AND LAME AS SHIT! GUYS ASKIN WHAT I WANT OUTTA A GUY AND WHAT MAKES ME TURNED ON MY A GUYS SWAG WELL HERE IS MY BLUEPRINT!

I LIKE A GUY WITH THE KIND OF SWAG THAT MAKES ME WANT THEM FROM ACROSS THE ROOM! I WANNA SEE THIS GUY IN THE MIDDLE OF A PACKED ROOM AND HIM STANDED OUT JUST BECAUSE HE IS HIS SELF. I DONT LIKE GUYS THAT HAVE TO DO ALL THE ECT. ECT. ECT. ON THE DANCE FLOOR WITH HIS BOYZ BUT JUST BE VIBIN TO THE MUSIC AND DOIN HIM. I WANT A GUY THAT NO MATTER WHAT THEY NEVER FAKE OR FRONT ABOUT WHO THEY ARE. THEIR JUST THEM.

I DONT LIKE GUYS WHO GRAB ALL OVER YOU AND COME UP TO YOU WHEN YOUR DANCIN WITH YOUR GIRLS ARE PUT THEIR DICK ON YOUR BACK LIKE A DUMBASS WHO IS CLEARLY THINKIN WITH THEIR DICKS AND NOT THEIR MINDS. I MEAN I KNOW I DANCE LIKE A FREAK AND IM OVER THE TOP BUT DONT JUST PUT YOUR DICK ON MY BACK. I MEAN COME ON! NIGGA I DONT KNOW YOU! DONT THINK THAT JUST BECAUSE IM DANCIN I GOTTA DANCE WITH YOU BECAUSE NIGGA YOUR WRONG AS HELL! THATS A QUICK WAY TO GET LAUGHED AT AND HAVE ME LOOKIN AT YOU CRAZY! LOL!

PLEASE IF YOU SEE ME AND YOU KNOW ME FROM MYSPACE OR SOMETHING PLEASE DONT WAIT TILL IM HOME AND THEN WRITE ME TO TELL ME. I LIKE BOLD GUYS. IF YOU KNOW ME FROM SOMEWHERE SPEAK! I DONT BITE. IM FAR FROM A BITCH EVEN THOU I MAY LOOK LIKE IM GONNA BE LIKE NIGGA PLEASE GET THE HELL OUTTA MY FACE IM NOT. IM REALLY OVERLY NICE SO DONT BE SCARED TO SPEAK.

I LIKE A GUY THAT HAS GOALS. I MEAN NOT EVERYONE IS GONNA BE A STAR. SOMETIMES ITS TIME TO WAKE UP AND GET SOME REAL GOALS. I MEAN A GUY WITH 1 OR MORE BABIES OUT THERE AND YOU STILL HAVE NO REAL GOALS BUT RAPPIN OR SMOKE WITH YOUR NIGGA EVERYDAY THATS A RED FLAG AND I DEAL BREAKER! I AM QUICK TO DISMISS A NIGGA FOR THAT CRAP ASAP!

I HATE OVERLY HOOD NIGGAS. IF I CANT TALK TO YOU WITHOUT HAVIN TO SAY "WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU SAY" OVER AND OVER ITS NOT GONNA WORK. I HATE THAT "IM THE SHIT" SWAG. CLEARLY IF YOU’RE THE SHIT YOU WOULDNT HAVE TO TELL SOMEONE ELSE YOU ARE. HELL NO YOUR NOT THE HOTTEST THING SMOKIN AND NO I DONT OWE YOU SHIT. YOU GOT LIFE FUCKED IF YOU THINK IMA BREAK MY NECK FOR ANY NIGGA! ITS NOT MY STYLE AND WILL NEVER HAPPEN! NO GUY IS THAT SERIOUS. AND TRUTHFULLY HEARIN A GUY TALKIN ABOUT HOW I SHOULD COME SEE HIM AND I SHOULD COME GET THEM AND I I I I I! GUESS WHAT I DONT THINK SO! NIGGA YOU GOT LIFE FUCKED UP. IM CLASSIC. I LIKE GUYS TO PULL OUT ALL THE STOPS BEFORE I EVEN THINK ABOUT BREAKIN MY NECK TO SEE HIM OR WASTE MY TIME GOIN OUT MY WAY TO SEE HIM. ITS NOT THAT SERIOUS.

I LIKE GUYS LIKE PHARRELL AND JUSTIN FROM BALDWIN HILLS! I LIKE CLEAN CUT, SEXY, SWAG OF THERE OWN GUYS. I LOVE GUYS WITH TATTOOS! THATS A BIG ASS TURN ON! I LIKE RISK TAKERS. SOMEONE WHO DOES THEIR OWN THING. I LIKE PRETTY BOY THUGS. RESPECTFUL TREND SETTERS. AND UNTIL I FIND MY GUY I'LL STAY SINGLE. ITS BEEN A YEAR NOW THAT IVE BEEN DOIN ME WITH MY SINGLE LIFESTYLE. I MEAN SOMETIMES THERE ARE SOME LONELY NIGHTS BUT I RATHER BE LONELY THAN TO SETTLE FOR LESS THAN THE BEST! CHECK YOUR SWAG BABY!


-RANDOM LOVE SHIT!



"THERE ARE TH0SE TYPES 0F RELATI0NSHIPS THAT 0PEN Y0U UP T0 S0METHING NEW & EX0TIC, TH0SE THAT ARE 0LD AND FAMILIAR, TH0SE THAT BRING UP L0TS 0F QUESTI0NS, TH0SE THAT BRING Y0U S0MEWHERE UNEXPECTED, TH0SE THAT BRING Y0U FAR FR0M WHERE Y0U STARTED, AND TH0SE THAT BRING Y0U BACK. BUT THE M0ST EXCITING, CHALLENGING AND SIGNIFICANT RELATI0NSHIP 0F ALL IS THE 0NE Y0U HAVE WITH Y0URSELF. AND IF Y0UR LUCKY EN0UGH T0 FIND S0ME0NE T0 L0VE THE Y0U THAT Y0U L0VE WELL, THAT'S JUST FABUL0US."


"Love is just a word till someone you meet gives it a meaning.. Love is holding that special someone closely and realising that its still isnt close enough.. Its hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone if your heart still does.. The best and most beautiful thing in this world cannot be seen or heard but must de felt with the heart.. Because someone doesnt love you the way you want them to it doesnt mean they dont love you with all they have.. Sometimes its hard to love someone because you're so afraid of losing them.. The hardest part dreaming about someone you love is having to let go.. Somethings in life are worth waiting for even if it means waiting forever.. Love isnt about finding the perfect person its about seeing an imperfect person perfectly.. The hardest part of loving smoeone is knowing when to let go and knowing when to say goodbye.. Its hard to pretend to love someone when you dont when you really do.. The worst way to miss someone is when they're right beside you and yet you know you cant have them.. The love you cant have lasts the longest feels the strongest and hurts the most.. ths better to have love and lost then never to have loved at all.. If you really love something set it free if it comes back its yours if not it was never meant to be.. Never say goodbye when you still want to try never give up when you feel you can still take it never.. Say you no longer love a person when you cant let go.. The deeper you fall in love the harder it is to get out.. If you love someone tell them because hearts are often broken with words left unspoken.. Moving on is simple its what you leave behind makes it so difficult.. Love begins with a smile grows with a kiss..and ends with a tear..."


I'm an old soul in a young woman's body. I dream but I live in reality. My greatest fear is failure and my biggest high is success. I'm determined but I don't mind being lazy. I'm confident yet confused. I'm intelligent but I make stupid decisions and questionable choices. I make the same mistakes twice and then I learn. Love scares me to death and I could not imagine my life without it. I believe the quote "love is not blind, it sees more, not less, but because it sees more, it is willing to see less", couldn't be any more true. I take risks and think of the consequences later. I care too much but I don't care at all. I write what I feel and speak what I mean. Learning is my passion and love is my downfall. I enjoy supporting myself but I don't mind being spoiled. The feeling of accomplishment is my drive and motivation. I refuse to settle for less than what I deserve. The future excites me and makes me queezy. I'm misunderstood and I have baggage. I push away those who care and realize it too late. I'm a good foe but an even better friend. I've been through heartbreak and I've been through hell. I sing, I dance, I laugh, I cry, I am human and I am not perfect. It's my life and I wouldn't trade it for anything.


Favorite Quotes

1."I'M NOT THE GIRL NEXT DOOR! I'M THE BITCH DOWN THE STREET!"{Tila Tequila}-I can feel that quote!

2.Feel Me Or Kill Me Fuck Nigga![PI BANG]- Thats my dawg!

3.Alea Lacta Est{The die is cast]

4.Carpe Diem{Seize the day}!

5.You may not feel it yet but honey COMMODITY IS WHAT YOU NEED! NOT WHAT YOU WANT!

6.BE MORE CONCERNED WITH YOUR CHARACTER THEN ....UR.... REPUTATIONS... BECAUSE YOUR CHARACTER IS WHAT YOU REALLY ARE,.. WHILE ....UR.... ''REP'' IS MERELY WHAT OTHERS THINK YOU ARE! IM ME & IM GONNA STAY ME NO MATTER WHAT! I'LL NEVER EXPLAIN OR BE SORRY FOR WHAT I DO OR HAVE DONE BECAUSE IN THE END I DID IT FOR A REASON. ONLY CHILDREN JUDGE PEOPLE FOR WHO OR WHAT THEY DO/ARE? I GREW UP SINCE MIDDLE SCHOOL....IM SORRY YOU HAVEN'T

7.I CAN ONLY GIVE SO MUCH 2 U BE4 I REALIZE ALL IVE ALREADY GOTTEN FROM U IS ALL UR WILLING 2 GIVE. U'VE SUCKED ME DRY. UR A LEECH 4 MY LOVE!

8.SOMETIMES ITS EASIER TO BE WITH SOMEONE U CANT LOVE.........THAN ADMITTING U LOVE SOMEONE U CANT HAVE!

9.Many people have told me I’ve changed. But the truth is... I think I’ve just found myself

10.Its CRAZY when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, & when you want to move on, your stuck right where you started

11.Nothing's forever - forever's a lie. All we have is what's between hello and goodbye

12.It's so hard to say goodbye to something that you never had in the beginning

13.Sometimes when i say "oh im fine", i want someone to look me in the eyes and say "tell the truth

14.In life we all have an unspeakable secret, an irreversible regret, an unreachable dream and an unforgettable love

15.NEVER apologize for saying what you feel. Because if you do, its like saying "sorry for being real

16.Love is giving someone the power to destroy you...but trusting them not to

17.Dreaming of the person you want to be is wasting the person you already are." -Kurt Cobain

18.Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the things you did

19.When you want to cry, cry. When you want to scream, scream. Don't hide behind fake smiles, its ok to not be alright

20.U SAY ITS ME...I SAY ITS U...U SAY ITS OVA...I SAY WE BEEN THUR...BUT STILL U CANT WALK AWAY FROM ME...& I CANT WALK AWAY FROM U!.....STUCK!

21.MOST PEOPLE LOVE IN BLACK N WHITE BUT I LOVE IN COLOR! EVEN IF LIFE WAS A SILENT MOVIE U COULD READ MY PASSION

22.WHEN I WAS A CHILD I SPOKE AS A CHILD, UNDERSTOOD AS A CHILD, THOUGHT AS A CHILD BUT WHEN I BECAME AN ADULT I PUT AWAY ALL CHILDISH THINGS

23.MOST PEOPLE LOVE IN BLACK N WHITE BUT I LOVE IN COLOR! EVEN IF LIFE WAS A SILENT MOVIE U COULD READ MY PASSION!

24.Married to the Money but I fucked the shit outta success! Determination took my virginity but I had a baby wit progress & mothered a dream!