AM I DREAMING?!?

ITS BEEN HELLLLLLLLLAAAAAAA LONG SINCE IVE WROTE ANYTHING AND BELIEVE ME EVERYTHING HAS BEEN GOING ON! SINCE WE LAST SPOKE IVE BEEN WORKIN LIKE HELLA CRAZY! 112 HOURS ON PAYCHECKS AND THEN IM DOIN ALOT OF LOWKEY SHIT TOO! MADE THE CHOICE TO TAKE MY TRIP TO DIEGO THIS SUMMER AND EVEN THOU HELLA BITCHES CAME AND WENT WITH FLAKY BULLSHIT ON HOW THEY WANTED TO GO BUT FLAKED IN THE END IM STILL GOING IN 16 DAYS! IM HELLA RETARDED EXCITED! IVE BEEN DREAMING ABOUT THIS GET AWAY EVERY NIGHT FOR THE PASTED 3 WEEKS AND ITS ONLY GETTING CLOSER! JUST CANT WAIT TO GET IN TROUBLE, PISS PEOPLE OFF, GAIN SOME HATERS, MAKE NIGGAZ FALL IN LOVE WITH ME AND THEN BOUNCE ON THEM HOES WITH NO FEELINGS! LOL I GUESS IM SOOOO EXCITED BECAUSE I HAVENT BEEN DOIN SHIT IN ORLANDO FOR A WHILE! I MEAN I SHOW FACE MAYBE TWICE A MONTH BUT ON THE REAL REAL I LOVE LOWKEY LIFE.

LIVING OUT HERE HAS REALLY HELPED ME GROW AND NOW IM HELLA READY TO HIT IT TO CALI WITH THE BIG MOVE HOPEFULLY IN THE NEXT 6 MONTHS. I JUST NEED A CHANGE! I JUST NEED SOMETHING MORE. AND WITH MY GREATTTTTT JOB I CANT GO ANYWHERE I FUCKIN WAIT! HAHAHAHAHA I KNOW SOMEONE IS READING THIS HATIN RIGHT NOW! LOL BLAH LET ME STOP! AS FAR AS RELATIONSHIP IM STILL SINGLE! I CANT REALLY SAY IM LOOKING OR TALKING TO ANYONE AMAZING AS OF RIGHT NOW BUT HEY IM YOUNG AND ORLANDO BLOWS SO THATS NOT HARD TO BELIEVE. WELL WAIT I LIED. I DO HAVE A "SEXY FACE" (SHOUTOUT TO TOYA LOL} HE IS SOMETHING SPECIAL BUT HE IS HELLLLAAAAAA FAR AND LOWKEY FAMOUS SOOOOOOO.......IDK ABOUT ALL THAT! I HAVE HAD MY FAIR SHARE OF FAMOUS ARM CANDY! WHO KNOWS THOU! GUYS JUST NOT 100% NOWADAYS SO WHY WOULD I PULL OUT THE WIFEY SHIT FOR SOMEONE WHO GONNA FLAKE IN A FEW DAYS! LOL #FAIL

IVE BEEN DOING ALOT OF THINKING ABOUT LIFE NOWDAYS! BEEN JUST FOCUSED ON ME! ALOT OF SOUL SEARCHING! LIFE IS HELLA GOOD SO I ONLY WANT MY TRUE FRIENDS BY MY SIDE! I GOT BIG MOVES COMING UP IN MY LIFE AND WHY WOULD I WANT ALOT OF COAT TAIL RIDERS TO BE ALONG FOR THE RIDE!?! IM GOOD! AS FAR AS "HIM"....THE GUY WHO MOST OF MY BLOGS STARED A WHILE BACK.....I MEAN I STILL CARE FOR HIM BUT HE WENT GHOST ON ME WHEN I NEEDED HIM TO JUST LISTEN........NEEDED HIM TO JUST BE THERE......NEEDED HIM TO JUST HEAR ME OUT! JUST NEEDED HIM! SO NOW I DONT. IT HURTS TO SAY BUT EVERYDAY THAT GOES BY MY HEART BEAT LESS AND LESS TO HIS BEAT! I GUESS IT JUST ME LIVING AND LEARNING BUT I GUESS I NEVER KNEW LEARNING WOULD HURT THIS BAD EVEN AFTER ALLLLLL THIS TIME. BUT AMAZINGLY IT DOES STILL MAKE ME CHOKE ON TEARS FROM TIME TO TIME AND THINK BOUT THE TIMES WHEN HE WOULD TELL ME I WAS THE ONLY AND EVEN THOU MY HEART ALWAYS KNEW BETTER JUST HEARING THE WORDS ALWAYS MADE ME MELT ANYWAYS. BUT SHIT HAPPENS! LIES ARE TOLD. AND NOW I KNOW BETTER. I FEEL LIKE 2010 CAME INTO MY LIFE AND HAS TESTED ME SOOOOOO MUCH! THIS YEAR ISNT EVEN OVER BUT BELIEVE ME IT HAS BEEN THE HARDEST YEAR EVER. I HAVE GROWN SOME MUCH AND PLAN TO KEEP GROWING!

OH YEAAAAAAAAAAAAA! I WAS GONNA END IT LIKE THAT BUT I PLAN ON AIR SOME SHIT OUT REAL QUICK ABOUT SOME BULLSHIT FUNNY SHIT THAT GOT ME NOTHING BUT FOLLOWERS THAT PEOPLE THINK IS/WAS HELLA FUNNY. LAST TIME I CHECKED UP GROWN SO IF ANYONE WANTS TO JUDGE ME ON WHATEVER I DO ON MY COMPUTER THAT IN MY HOUSE THAT I PAID FOR YOU GONNA HAVE TO JUST THINK IM DEAF BECAUSE IM NOT HEARIN YOU! HELLA PEOPLE BUTT HURT BECAUSE THEY GOT BLASTED FOR BEING DIRTY WHORES WHO FUCK PEOPLE THEY MEET ON TWITTER AND TINYCHAT. IM SORRY BUT IF YOU GONNA FUCK SOMEBODY AND TELL PEOPLE DONT BE ALL MAD WHEN I TALK ABOUT IT AND LAUGH! I MEAN YOUR FREE TO DO YOU BUT DONT THINK YOU COULD EVERRRRRRR COME AT ME ON SOME SMUT BULLSHIT WHEN NO ONE! EVERRRRRRRR FROM NO TWITTER/MYSPACE/SKYPE/OOVOO/ICHAT/TINYCHAT/FACEBOOK/BLACKPLANET ANYTHING HAS EVER FUCKED ME! I GUESS I GOT ALOT MORE CLASS SHAKEN MY BABY OILED ASS IN MY 4 WALLS THAT NO ONE FROM THE INTERNET HAS EVER BEEN TO! BUT FEEL FREE TO POST ANY VIDEOS PICTURES SOUNDBITES ANYTHING YOU GOT BUT PLEASE MAKE SURE YOU @ ME PLEASE! I LOVE MY NEW FOLLOWERS! KISSES! YOU CAN GO EAT A GLASS SANDWICH NOW!

!THINGS ARE FUCKIN GREAT!

SOOOOOOOOOOO! I WAS READING MY BLOGS AND MY PAGE IS ABOUT ALOT OF SHIT BUT ITS ALL LOWKEY SAD! BLAHHHHHHHH! IVE BEEN MEANING TO BLOG BUT EVERYTHING HAS BEEN ALL SMILES SO I FELT LOWKEY LOST FOR WORDS UNTIL I REALLY JUST THOUGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING AND WAS LIKE FUCK IT! LET ME JUST WRITE WHATS IN MY HEART! SO HERE IT GOESSSSSSS!

LIFE IN THE SUCK ASS PLACE ORLANDO HAS SUCKED SOOOO BAD SINCE I LANDED HERE ALL THOSE YEARS AGO! THE SECOND I HOPPED MY BLACK ASS OF THE PLANE I KNEW I WAS GONNA HATE THIS FUCKIN PLACE AND I HAVE BUT THATS ALL GONNA CHANGE VERY SOON! ME AND THE BESTIE HAVE BEEN THINKIN ABOUT MOVING AND I HAVE TO SAY THAT SOUNDS LIKE A GREATTTTTT IDEA! I CANT WAIT TO LEAVE ALL THESE BORING ASS TMZ ASS PEOPLE IN THE DUST AS I MOVE ON WITH LIFE AND LEAVE THEM STILL HERE DOIN THE SAME DAMN THING LIKE ITS POPPIN! IM SORRY BUT IF YOUR OVER THE AGE OF 25 AND YOUR STILL IN THE CLUB AND ON THE SCENE WEEKLY YOUR ASS BETTER BE GETTIN PAID OR YOUR JUST A LAME! BITCHES WITH ALL THESE DAMN BABY DADDIES AND STILL IN THE CLUB THINKIN ITS THE HOT SHIT! IM SORRY BUT IF I HAVE A CHILD THE CLUB IS GONNA BE A ONCE OR TWICE A MONTH THING! I MEAN DAMN BITCHES! YOU GOTTA BE AT THE CLUB EVERY WEEK? WHO U GOIN TO SEE?!? ITS RARE WE GET NEW FACES AND IF WE DO ITS A 1 IN A MILLION CHANCE THAT THEIR NOT GONNA BE LAMEEEEEEEEE SO WHY STRESS IT!

OMG ANOTHER THING I HATE! WHY DOES EVERYONE WANNABE A MODEL?!? EVERYONE TRYIN TO BE THE NEXT CHICK TO HAVE YOUR ASS ALL OVER SOMEONES MYSPACE! LOL I KNOW YOU READIN THIS AND THEN LOOKIN AT MY TITTLE PIC CONFUSED BUT THATS DIFFERENT. HE HIT ME UP AND ASKED ME TO DO A SHOOTS AND ONCE I GOT THE PICS I WAS RUSHING TO MODEL MAYHEM TO POST PICS UP LOOKIN FOR JOBS AND VIDEOS I CAN TRYIN AND BE SEEN IN. IM SORRY BUT ITS JUST NOT THAT SERIOUS FOR ME I GUESS.

OH AND I HATE BITCHES WHO THINK THAT GOING TO MIAMI IS A VACATION! HELLOOOOOOOOOO ITS ONLY A FEW HOURS AWAY! IM SORRY BUT IF YOUR NOT DRIVING OVER 8 HOURS OR FLYING YOUR NOT ON VACATION! YOU JUST WENT A FEW CITIES OVER TO VISIT FOR AWHILE! LOL OH AND ON THAT NOTE! IM SOOOOOOOO EXCITED FOR CALI WITH MY GET MONEY BITCHES! YESSSSSS! IM BRING THE FEW BITCHES I FUCKS WITH TO SEE WHERE I CAME FROM AND MEET MY REAL PEOPLE AND FAM! I ALREADY KNOW IMA CRY LIKE EVERYDAY BUT ITS SOOOO WORTH IT! AND ME AND MY BESTIE CAN SEE IF THATS WE WANNA MOVE OR LA! YESSSSSS! IVE NEVER BEEN SOOOOOO HAPPY! STARTED SOME NEW JOBS! THEIR ALL GREAT! MADE SOME AMAZING BUSINESS DEALS. AND NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY!

I HAVE SOMEONE SPECIAL IN MY LIFE AND NOTHING BUT POSITIVE AND GREAT PEOPLE THAT IM SHARIN MY HAPPINESS WITH! I FINALLY GET A CHANCE TO LAUGH AT BITCHES THAT STILL STUCK IN THE PASTED HATIN THEIR LIFE SO THEY MAKE UP EVERY REASON TO HATE SOMEONE THATS HAPPY! IM GLAD I HAVE A CLEAR IDEA OF WHO IS REAL AROUND ME NOW. MY FAMILY IS GOOD AND MY HEALTH GETTING BETTER BY THE DAY AND THAT IS NOTHING BUT GODS BLESSINGS! IM ALLLLLLL SMILES AND IM TOO HAPPY TO HAVE THE GOOD LIFE GLOW! SO IMA END IT ALL THAT AND POST MY FAVORITE VIDEO FOR NOW! JUST FOR MR.SPECIAL!

U MADE ME THIS WAY

SO LATELY IVE BEEN TORN BETWEEN THE GOOD & THE BAD. THE RIGHT & THE WRONG! THE WHORE & THE ANGEL! THE BITCH & THE NICE GIRL! THE WEAK & THE STRONG! TO ME THIS WORLD PUSHES EVERYONE TO FEEL LIKE THEY CAN/SHOULD ONLY TO DO GOOD & THINK GOOD BUT WHO IS THE WORLD TO TELL ME WHATS GOOD? HOW ARE THESE PEOPLE TO JUDGE? IT FUNNY CAUSE AS I WRITE THESE WORDS ONE OF MY FAVORITE CHURCH SONGS COMES ON. THE SONG THAT WAS PLAYING WITH I CRIED MY FIRST TEARS OF SHAME. MY FIRST TEARS ON REGRET. MY FIRST TEARS OF HOPE FOR SOMETHING DIFFERENT AS I SAT IN A CHURCH ONLY DAYS AFTER GIVING UP MY FIRST CHILD ON A COLD CLINIC TABLE TOP ALL BY MYSELF WHILE I HOPED THE MAKE I WORE ACROSS MY FACE AND BODY COVERED THE MARKS HE LEFT ALL OVER ME KNOWING THAT I WAS CARRYING HIS CHILD.

THE PLACE WHERE MY FACE HIT THE WALL WENT HE THREW ME AFTER I TOLD HIM I COULDNT EAT THE FOOD HE GOT ME BECAUSE I WAS TOO SICK FROM OUR CHILD TO HOLD ANY FOOD DOWN. THE MARKS THAT WHERE LATER KISSED BY THE LIPS OF THE SAME MAN WAS STANDING OVER ME KICKING ME IN THE BACK WHILE I CRIED AND TRIED TO MAKE SENSE OF THE MISTAKES I MUST OF MADE TO ENDED ME UP HERE. I FLASHED BACK TO THE TIMES WHEN I WAS TO YOUNG TO FULLY UNDERSTAND WORDS THAT WERE BEING YELLED FROM THE NEXT ROOM WHILE I SAT ON THE FLOOR HOLDING MY PILLOW LISTENING TO DEAR OL DAD BEAT HIS POINT INTO MY MOTHERS FACE.

I SAT THERE ONLY YEARS FROM THE WOMB LISTENING TO SOUNDS OF THE MAN THAT MADE ME A DADDY'S GIRL WRECKED EVERY BIT OF TRUST IN A MAN BEFORE I COULD EVEN REMEMBER HIS NAME. I LOOK BACK NOW AND I REALIZE THAT EVERY SECOND I SAT ON THAT FLOOR SCARED FOR MY MOTHER, MY BROTHER AND MY MYSELF I BECAME MORE AND MORE BROKEN! MORE AND MORE COLD! MORE AND MORE INDEPENDENT! THATS WHEN I LEARNED NOT TO TRUST! THATS WHEN I LEARN TO HIT BEFORE GETTIN HIT! TO HURT BEFORE GETTING HURT AND TO LEAVE BEFORE LOVING!

PEOPLE ALWAYS WANT YOU TO LEARN FROM EVERYTHING YOU GO THUR IN LIFE BUT WHAT IF EVERYTHING BIG WAS HELLA FUCKED UP? WHAT IF YOU LIVED A FUCKIN SHITY LIFE? WHAT IF EVERYONE YOU TRUSTED WAS SOMEONE SNEAKY, HURTFUL AND DIRTY? THEN WHAT! HOW TO YOU MOLD A GOOD PERSON FROM DIRTY CLAY? PEOPLE ALWAYS WANT YOU TO ME OPEN MINDED AND OPEN TO NEW THINGS BUT WHAT IF EVERY TIME YOU OPEN UP YOU GET BULLSHIT THAT GIVES YOU KNOW CHOICE BUT TO CLOSE UP AND BECOME EVEN MORE COLD? THEN WHAT!?!

I HAVE THIS PROBLEM.....IM TOO CARING! I CARE SO MUCH TO EASY! THE SECOND I MAKE A BONDED WITH SOMEONE I BECOME STUCK CARING FOR THE PERSON NO MATTER WHAT! I BECOME THE FRIEND THATS ALWAYS THERE FOR THEM 24/7 EVEN WHEN I KNOW THEY WOULD NEVER DO THE SAME FOR ME. ALWAYS LOVING! ALWAYS CARING! ALWAYS GIVING! WHICH ALWAYS LEFT ME EMPTY! I GAVE TO FRIENDS, GAVE TO FAMILY, GIVE IN RELATIONSHIPS AND THEN I WHEN I STOPPED AND WAS AT MY LOWEST I LOOKED BACK AT THE EDGE OF EVERYTHING LIKE ROSE IN TITANIC ABOUT TO JUMP TO FINALLY FEEL FREE BUT WHEN I LOOKED BACK THERE WAS NO JACK. THERE WAS NO ONE! I HAD A CHOICE. JUMP AND JUST LET EVERYTHING KILL ME OR FIGHT BACK FOR EVERYTHING I COULD HAVE.

AND I MADE THE CHOICE TO FIGHT! I PUSHED THE DRAMA OUT OF MY LIFE! I PUSHED THE NEEDY PEOPLE OUT MY CIRCLE. I CLEANED MY WORLD OF THE EXTRAS THAT WERE JUST NOT NEEDED AND I FOCUSED ON ME! I GAVE EVERYTHING UP TO JUST BREATHE FREELY. I BECAME COLD HEARTED! I BECAME EVEN MORE UN-TRUSTING! I BECAME SCARY HEARTLESS. I CHANGED ME. I TOOK ME TIME. I FELL OFF. I STARTED NOT GIVING 2 FUCKS ABOUT ANYONE BUT MYSELF. I CRIED WHEN I WANTED TO. I YELLED WHEN I WANTED TO! I DID ME AND STILL THEY TALK! STILL THEY HAVE NO LIFE! STILL IM A TOPIC! BUT THE ONLY DIFFERENCE NOW IS............I COULD CARELESS 100% AND U MADE ME THIS WAY!

LOVE U TO HATE

HAVE TO LAUGH AT MYSELF WHEN I REALLY THINK ABOUT IT. EVERYTHING THAT I LAUGH AT OTHER PEOPLE FOR DOING AND BEING A PART OF I DID FOR YOU! LATE NIGHT CALLS AND I LOVE YOU TEXTS TO SOMEONE I SWORE I KNEW. SOMEONE WHO'S FLAWS MADE ME SMILE AND LAUGH BECAUSE I LOVED EACH AND EVERY ONE OF THEM SOOOOO MUCH! BENDING OVER BACKWARDS FOR SOMEONE I SWORE LOVED ME BUT LETS BE SERIOUS! YOU NEVER "LOVED" ME! THAT WAS JUST A WORD YOU THROW AROUND TO FEMALES TO GET WHAT YOU WANT! BUT I HAVE TO GIVE IT TO YOU! THE "IM WAITING ON YOU" AND "YOUR THE ONLY 1 I WANT" WAS AN AMAZING TOUCH! BUT YOU NEVER REALLY HAD IT IN YOU TO BE REAL WITH ME! YOU RATHER JUST DO SNEAKY UNDERHANDED BULLSHIT TO GET YOUR POINT ACROSS! WELL CONGRATS! YOU'VE DONE THE MOST! FOR TOO LONG I PLAYED DUMB TO THE FACT THAT YOU BEEN DOING YOU BUT LETS BE ADULTS ABOUT THIS..........SO HAVE I! BUT AT LEAST HAD ENOUGH RESPECT TO BE TRUTHFUL WITH YOU. NEVER LIED! NEVER THOUGHT FOR A SECOND TO HIDE ANYTHING FROM YOU BUT YOU NEVER HAD THAT RESPECT FOR ME! BUT LIKE A YOUNG DUMB SCHOOL GIRL I LOVE YOU!..........NOW SAYING THOSE WORDS, LIKE REALLY SAYING THE WORDS "I LOVE YOU" MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I WANT TO THROW UP EVERY BIT OF FOOD IVE ATE SINCE THE DAY WE EVER SPOKE OUR FIRST WORDS. YOU MADE ME LOVE YOU! AND THAT I DID! YOU MADE ME LOVE YOU TO HATE!

TO THE POINT WHERE LOOKING AT YOUR PICTURES MADE ME FEEL DUMB AND CHILDISH FOR LETTING YOU GET THAT CLOSE TO ME. FOR LETTING YOU PRETEND LIKE YOU GAVE A DAMN! LOL! I SERIOUSLY DONT KNOW HOW I EVER THOUGHT SOMEONE SO HEARTLESS COULD REALLY GAVE A DAMN ABOUT ANYONE BUT THEM SELF! ITS WAS ALWAYS YOU RUNNING THE SHOW! ALWAYS JUMPING EVERY TIME YOU CALLED! ALWAYS GOING ABOVE AND BEYOND FOR YOU TO TREAT ME LIKE SHIT IN THE END! BUT ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! I RATHER BE ALONE HOLDING MY PILLOW EVERY NIGHT THEN TO BE SOOOOO STUPID AGAIN! SO YOU WIN! YOU MADE ME LOVE YOU! YOU MADE ME CARE! BUT TRUST AND BELIEVE SWEETIE! I WILL HAVE THE LAST LAUGH! 1 DAY YOU'LL CARE ABOUT SOMEONE JUST AS MUCH AS I CARE ABOUT YOU AND THEN SHE'LL BREAK HER HEEL OFF IN YOUR HEART AND LAUGH JUST LIKE YOUR ARE RIGHT NOW! KARMA IS A BITCH! LOL! BUT I MEAN THERE REALLY ISNT ANY OTHER ENDING SWEETIE! BOOSKI! BAE! LOL KARMA FROM MAKING ALL THESE GIRLS LOVE YOU TO HATE HAS GOTTA SUCK! KISSES BOO! WISHING YOU THE BEST!........LIKE REALLY! HOWEVER LONG THAT LAST!I

LOVE IN COLORS

IM STILL SIT HERE WITH MY HEART IN MY HANDS AT THE EDGE OF OUR LOVE PRAYING AND HOPING FOR U TO GRAB ME AND BE BY MY SIDE LIKE YOU'VE ALWAYS BEEN. BUT AS LOOK BACK.....YOUR NO WHERE TO BE FOUND! I SEE NOTHING BUT THE COLORS OF OUR LOVE FADING LIKE IF ALL THIS TIME WE WERE PAINTING OUR STORY IN WATERCOLORS AND THE RAINS OF CHANGE ARE WASHING AWAY THE LOVE WE SHARE AS IF IT WAS NEVER THERE. I WAKE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE LONELIEST NIGHTS FROM NIGHTMARES OF A LIFE WITHOUT YOU BY MY SIDE AND I REACH FOR A PHONE THAT HASNT PLAYED THE BEYONCE "YOU ARE MY ROCK" RINGTONE I SET FOR YOU IN WEEKS. OR FOR THAT FACT EVEN FLASHED UR PICTURE LETTING ME KNOW THAT AT LEAST IM STILL ON YOUR MIND. BUT STILL IM WISHING THAT YOU STILL TAKE TIME OUTTA OF YOUR EVERYDAY TO STOP AND LET ME KNOW HOW MUCH YOU LOVE ME.

I LOOK DOWN AT PLANE TICKETS TO A PLACE THAT I ALWAYS FELT WOULD BE THE HAPPINESS PLACE FOR ME TO BE AND I REALIZE THAT EVEN IF I WAS TO LEAVE TODAY THE CHANCES OF YOU BEING THERE ARE SLIM TO NONE! I SEE THE GIRLS HERE AND THERE AND NO MATTER HOW LITTLE THE HINTS OF FLIRTING IS I KEEP THINKING TO MYSELF "WHAT DOES SHE GIVE HIM THAT I DONT?" I KEEP LOOKING AT PICTURES OF GIRLS THAT IN YOUR BOOK MAY MEAN NOTHING BUT IN MY BOOK ARE THE BIGGEST THREAT. I FEEL MYSELF TRYING TO CHANGE WHAT I AM WHEN IN ALL SERIOUSNESS I KNOW THERES NOTHING MORE I CAN DO. YOU'VE MADE YOUR CHOICE TO DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO AND IVE MADE MY CHOICE TO BE WHERE I AM.

ALL MY FRIENDS KEEP TELLING ME TO FAKE THE FACT THAT I LOVE YOU. BUT I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW I CAN GO FROM LOVING SOMEONE IN COLOR TO LOVING THEM IN BLACK IN WHITE. MY PASSION IS JUST TO DEEP! IF LIFE WAS A SILENT MOVIE U COULD READ MY PASSION. A PASSION SO BRIGHT THAT THE DARKEST SUNGLASSES COULD NEVER BLOCK THE WAY U MAKE ME SHINE. I FEEL LIKE LOVING YOU IS DIMMING MY LIGHT AND SUCKING THE LIFE FROM ME. BUT REALLY I DONT SEE THE LIGHT IN A LIFE WITHOUT YOU BY MY SIDE.

DAYDREAMS OF WHAT COULD OF BEEN FILL MY EVERY WAKING MOMENT. DAYDREAMS OF A LOVE THAT IS SO UNTOUCHABLE AND STRONG PEOPLE WOULD WRITE MOVIES, SONGS AND BOOKS ABOUT US. LOVE THAT MOVIES LIKE THE NOTEBOOK COULD NEVER TOUCH. I WISH I COULD TOUCH YOUR SOUL AND MAKE YOUR HEART FLASH BACK TO TIMES WHEN YOU TOLD ME THAT I WAS ALL YOU WANTED. I MISS YOUR SMILE......YOUR LAUGH.........AND YOUR THE STYLE OF YOUR SWAG. SHIT I EVEN MISS THE WAY YOUR HEARTBEAT PUTS ME TO SLEEP. I MISS CALLING WHEN IM SCARED AND JUST KNOWING THAT YOUR THERE! BUT I GUESS IM STILL LOVING YOU IN COLORS AND YOUR JUST COLOR BLIND..............MAYBE I HAVE TO SAY GOODBYE FOR THE VERY LAST TIME!