LOVE IN COLORS

IM STILL SIT HERE WITH MY HEART IN MY HANDS AT THE EDGE OF OUR LOVE PRAYING AND HOPING FOR U TO GRAB ME AND BE BY MY SIDE LIKE YOU'VE ALWAYS BEEN. BUT AS LOOK BACK.....YOUR NO WHERE TO BE FOUND! I SEE NOTHING BUT THE COLORS OF OUR LOVE FADING LIKE IF ALL THIS TIME WE WERE PAINTING OUR STORY IN WATERCOLORS AND THE RAINS OF CHANGE ARE WASHING AWAY THE LOVE WE SHARE AS IF IT WAS NEVER THERE. I WAKE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE LONELIEST NIGHTS FROM NIGHTMARES OF A LIFE WITHOUT YOU BY MY SIDE AND I REACH FOR A PHONE THAT HASNT PLAYED THE BEYONCE "YOU ARE MY ROCK" RINGTONE I SET FOR YOU IN WEEKS. OR FOR THAT FACT EVEN FLASHED UR PICTURE LETTING ME KNOW THAT AT LEAST IM STILL ON YOUR MIND. BUT STILL IM WISHING THAT YOU STILL TAKE TIME OUTTA OF YOUR EVERYDAY TO STOP AND LET ME KNOW HOW MUCH YOU LOVE ME.

I LOOK DOWN AT PLANE TICKETS TO A PLACE THAT I ALWAYS FELT WOULD BE THE HAPPINESS PLACE FOR ME TO BE AND I REALIZE THAT EVEN IF I WAS TO LEAVE TODAY THE CHANCES OF YOU BEING THERE ARE SLIM TO NONE! I SEE THE GIRLS HERE AND THERE AND NO MATTER HOW LITTLE THE HINTS OF FLIRTING IS I KEEP THINKING TO MYSELF "WHAT DOES SHE GIVE HIM THAT I DONT?" I KEEP LOOKING AT PICTURES OF GIRLS THAT IN YOUR BOOK MAY MEAN NOTHING BUT IN MY BOOK ARE THE BIGGEST THREAT. I FEEL MYSELF TRYING TO CHANGE WHAT I AM WHEN IN ALL SERIOUSNESS I KNOW THERES NOTHING MORE I CAN DO. YOU'VE MADE YOUR CHOICE TO DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO AND IVE MADE MY CHOICE TO BE WHERE I AM.

ALL MY FRIENDS KEEP TELLING ME TO FAKE THE FACT THAT I LOVE YOU. BUT I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW I CAN GO FROM LOVING SOMEONE IN COLOR TO LOVING THEM IN BLACK IN WHITE. MY PASSION IS JUST TO DEEP! IF LIFE WAS A SILENT MOVIE U COULD READ MY PASSION. A PASSION SO BRIGHT THAT THE DARKEST SUNGLASSES COULD NEVER BLOCK THE WAY U MAKE ME SHINE. I FEEL LIKE LOVING YOU IS DIMMING MY LIGHT AND SUCKING THE LIFE FROM ME. BUT REALLY I DONT SEE THE LIGHT IN A LIFE WITHOUT YOU BY MY SIDE.

DAYDREAMS OF WHAT COULD OF BEEN FILL MY EVERY WAKING MOMENT. DAYDREAMS OF A LOVE THAT IS SO UNTOUCHABLE AND STRONG PEOPLE WOULD WRITE MOVIES, SONGS AND BOOKS ABOUT US. LOVE THAT MOVIES LIKE THE NOTEBOOK COULD NEVER TOUCH. I WISH I COULD TOUCH YOUR SOUL AND MAKE YOUR HEART FLASH BACK TO TIMES WHEN YOU TOLD ME THAT I WAS ALL YOU WANTED. I MISS YOUR SMILE......YOUR LAUGH.........AND YOUR THE STYLE OF YOUR SWAG. SHIT I EVEN MISS THE WAY YOUR HEARTBEAT PUTS ME TO SLEEP. I MISS CALLING WHEN IM SCARED AND JUST KNOWING THAT YOUR THERE! BUT I GUESS IM STILL LOVING YOU IN COLORS AND YOUR JUST COLOR BLIND..............MAYBE I HAVE TO SAY GOODBYE FOR THE VERY LAST TIME!