LOVE U TO HATE

HAVE TO LAUGH AT MYSELF WHEN I REALLY THINK ABOUT IT. EVERYTHING THAT I LAUGH AT OTHER PEOPLE FOR DOING AND BEING A PART OF I DID FOR YOU! LATE NIGHT CALLS AND I LOVE YOU TEXTS TO SOMEONE I SWORE I KNEW. SOMEONE WHO'S FLAWS MADE ME SMILE AND LAUGH BECAUSE I LOVED EACH AND EVERY ONE OF THEM SOOOOO MUCH! BENDING OVER BACKWARDS FOR SOMEONE I SWORE LOVED ME BUT LETS BE SERIOUS! YOU NEVER "LOVED" ME! THAT WAS JUST A WORD YOU THROW AROUND TO FEMALES TO GET WHAT YOU WANT! BUT I HAVE TO GIVE IT TO YOU! THE "IM WAITING ON YOU" AND "YOUR THE ONLY 1 I WANT" WAS AN AMAZING TOUCH! BUT YOU NEVER REALLY HAD IT IN YOU TO BE REAL WITH ME! YOU RATHER JUST DO SNEAKY UNDERHANDED BULLSHIT TO GET YOUR POINT ACROSS! WELL CONGRATS! YOU'VE DONE THE MOST! FOR TOO LONG I PLAYED DUMB TO THE FACT THAT YOU BEEN DOING YOU BUT LETS BE ADULTS ABOUT THIS..........SO HAVE I! BUT AT LEAST HAD ENOUGH RESPECT TO BE TRUTHFUL WITH YOU. NEVER LIED! NEVER THOUGHT FOR A SECOND TO HIDE ANYTHING FROM YOU BUT YOU NEVER HAD THAT RESPECT FOR ME! BUT LIKE A YOUNG DUMB SCHOOL GIRL I LOVE YOU!..........NOW SAYING THOSE WORDS, LIKE REALLY SAYING THE WORDS "I LOVE YOU" MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I WANT TO THROW UP EVERY BIT OF FOOD IVE ATE SINCE THE DAY WE EVER SPOKE OUR FIRST WORDS. YOU MADE ME LOVE YOU! AND THAT I DID! YOU MADE ME LOVE YOU TO HATE!

TO THE POINT WHERE LOOKING AT YOUR PICTURES MADE ME FEEL DUMB AND CHILDISH FOR LETTING YOU GET THAT CLOSE TO ME. FOR LETTING YOU PRETEND LIKE YOU GAVE A DAMN! LOL! I SERIOUSLY DONT KNOW HOW I EVER THOUGHT SOMEONE SO HEARTLESS COULD REALLY GAVE A DAMN ABOUT ANYONE BUT THEM SELF! ITS WAS ALWAYS YOU RUNNING THE SHOW! ALWAYS JUMPING EVERY TIME YOU CALLED! ALWAYS GOING ABOVE AND BEYOND FOR YOU TO TREAT ME LIKE SHIT IN THE END! BUT ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! I RATHER BE ALONE HOLDING MY PILLOW EVERY NIGHT THEN TO BE SOOOOO STUPID AGAIN! SO YOU WIN! YOU MADE ME LOVE YOU! YOU MADE ME CARE! BUT TRUST AND BELIEVE SWEETIE! I WILL HAVE THE LAST LAUGH! 1 DAY YOU'LL CARE ABOUT SOMEONE JUST AS MUCH AS I CARE ABOUT YOU AND THEN SHE'LL BREAK HER HEEL OFF IN YOUR HEART AND LAUGH JUST LIKE YOUR ARE RIGHT NOW! KARMA IS A BITCH! LOL! BUT I MEAN THERE REALLY ISNT ANY OTHER ENDING SWEETIE! BOOSKI! BAE! LOL KARMA FROM MAKING ALL THESE GIRLS LOVE YOU TO HATE HAS GOTTA SUCK! KISSES BOO! WISHING YOU THE BEST!........LIKE REALLY! HOWEVER LONG THAT LAST!I