AM I DREAMING?!?

ITS BEEN HELLLLLLLLLAAAAAAA LONG SINCE IVE WROTE ANYTHING AND BELIEVE ME EVERYTHING HAS BEEN GOING ON! SINCE WE LAST SPOKE IVE BEEN WORKIN LIKE HELLA CRAZY! 112 HOURS ON PAYCHECKS AND THEN IM DOIN ALOT OF LOWKEY SHIT TOO! MADE THE CHOICE TO TAKE MY TRIP TO DIEGO THIS SUMMER AND EVEN THOU HELLA BITCHES CAME AND WENT WITH FLAKY BULLSHIT ON HOW THEY WANTED TO GO BUT FLAKED IN THE END IM STILL GOING IN 16 DAYS! IM HELLA RETARDED EXCITED! IVE BEEN DREAMING ABOUT THIS GET AWAY EVERY NIGHT FOR THE PASTED 3 WEEKS AND ITS ONLY GETTING CLOSER! JUST CANT WAIT TO GET IN TROUBLE, PISS PEOPLE OFF, GAIN SOME HATERS, MAKE NIGGAZ FALL IN LOVE WITH ME AND THEN BOUNCE ON THEM HOES WITH NO FEELINGS! LOL I GUESS IM SOOOO EXCITED BECAUSE I HAVENT BEEN DOIN SHIT IN ORLANDO FOR A WHILE! I MEAN I SHOW FACE MAYBE TWICE A MONTH BUT ON THE REAL REAL I LOVE LOWKEY LIFE.

LIVING OUT HERE HAS REALLY HELPED ME GROW AND NOW IM HELLA READY TO HIT IT TO CALI WITH THE BIG MOVE HOPEFULLY IN THE NEXT 6 MONTHS. I JUST NEED A CHANGE! I JUST NEED SOMETHING MORE. AND WITH MY GREATTTTTT JOB I CANT GO ANYWHERE I FUCKIN WAIT! HAHAHAHAHA I KNOW SOMEONE IS READING THIS HATIN RIGHT NOW! LOL BLAH LET ME STOP! AS FAR AS RELATIONSHIP IM STILL SINGLE! I CANT REALLY SAY IM LOOKING OR TALKING TO ANYONE AMAZING AS OF RIGHT NOW BUT HEY IM YOUNG AND ORLANDO BLOWS SO THATS NOT HARD TO BELIEVE. WELL WAIT I LIED. I DO HAVE A "SEXY FACE" (SHOUTOUT TO TOYA LOL} HE IS SOMETHING SPECIAL BUT HE IS HELLLLAAAAAA FAR AND LOWKEY FAMOUS SOOOOOOO.......IDK ABOUT ALL THAT! I HAVE HAD MY FAIR SHARE OF FAMOUS ARM CANDY! WHO KNOWS THOU! GUYS JUST NOT 100% NOWADAYS SO WHY WOULD I PULL OUT THE WIFEY SHIT FOR SOMEONE WHO GONNA FLAKE IN A FEW DAYS! LOL #FAIL

IVE BEEN DOING ALOT OF THINKING ABOUT LIFE NOWDAYS! BEEN JUST FOCUSED ON ME! ALOT OF SOUL SEARCHING! LIFE IS HELLA GOOD SO I ONLY WANT MY TRUE FRIENDS BY MY SIDE! I GOT BIG MOVES COMING UP IN MY LIFE AND WHY WOULD I WANT ALOT OF COAT TAIL RIDERS TO BE ALONG FOR THE RIDE!?! IM GOOD! AS FAR AS "HIM"....THE GUY WHO MOST OF MY BLOGS STARED A WHILE BACK.....I MEAN I STILL CARE FOR HIM BUT HE WENT GHOST ON ME WHEN I NEEDED HIM TO JUST LISTEN........NEEDED HIM TO JUST BE THERE......NEEDED HIM TO JUST HEAR ME OUT! JUST NEEDED HIM! SO NOW I DONT. IT HURTS TO SAY BUT EVERYDAY THAT GOES BY MY HEART BEAT LESS AND LESS TO HIS BEAT! I GUESS IT JUST ME LIVING AND LEARNING BUT I GUESS I NEVER KNEW LEARNING WOULD HURT THIS BAD EVEN AFTER ALLLLLL THIS TIME. BUT AMAZINGLY IT DOES STILL MAKE ME CHOKE ON TEARS FROM TIME TO TIME AND THINK BOUT THE TIMES WHEN HE WOULD TELL ME I WAS THE ONLY AND EVEN THOU MY HEART ALWAYS KNEW BETTER JUST HEARING THE WORDS ALWAYS MADE ME MELT ANYWAYS. BUT SHIT HAPPENS! LIES ARE TOLD. AND NOW I KNOW BETTER. I FEEL LIKE 2010 CAME INTO MY LIFE AND HAS TESTED ME SOOOOOO MUCH! THIS YEAR ISNT EVEN OVER BUT BELIEVE ME IT HAS BEEN THE HARDEST YEAR EVER. I HAVE GROWN SOME MUCH AND PLAN TO KEEP GROWING!

OH YEAAAAAAAAAAAAA! I WAS GONNA END IT LIKE THAT BUT I PLAN ON AIR SOME SHIT OUT REAL QUICK ABOUT SOME BULLSHIT FUNNY SHIT THAT GOT ME NOTHING BUT FOLLOWERS THAT PEOPLE THINK IS/WAS HELLA FUNNY. LAST TIME I CHECKED UP GROWN SO IF ANYONE WANTS TO JUDGE ME ON WHATEVER I DO ON MY COMPUTER THAT IN MY HOUSE THAT I PAID FOR YOU GONNA HAVE TO JUST THINK IM DEAF BECAUSE IM NOT HEARIN YOU! HELLA PEOPLE BUTT HURT BECAUSE THEY GOT BLASTED FOR BEING DIRTY WHORES WHO FUCK PEOPLE THEY MEET ON TWITTER AND TINYCHAT. IM SORRY BUT IF YOU GONNA FUCK SOMEBODY AND TELL PEOPLE DONT BE ALL MAD WHEN I TALK ABOUT IT AND LAUGH! I MEAN YOUR FREE TO DO YOU BUT DONT THINK YOU COULD EVERRRRRRR COME AT ME ON SOME SMUT BULLSHIT WHEN NO ONE! EVERRRRRRRR FROM NO TWITTER/MYSPACE/SKYPE/OOVOO/ICHAT/TINYCHAT/FACEBOOK/BLACKPLANET ANYTHING HAS EVER FUCKED ME! I GUESS I GOT ALOT MORE CLASS SHAKEN MY BABY OILED ASS IN MY 4 WALLS THAT NO ONE FROM THE INTERNET HAS EVER BEEN TO! BUT FEEL FREE TO POST ANY VIDEOS PICTURES SOUNDBITES ANYTHING YOU GOT BUT PLEASE MAKE SURE YOU @ ME PLEASE! I LOVE MY NEW FOLLOWERS! KISSES! YOU CAN GO EAT A GLASS SANDWICH NOW!